Being optimistic and having faith seems nearly impossible when you feel like your life is in shambles. Sometimes it's hard to trust God's plan when everything around you just doesn't make sense.  Have you ever felt so broken and defeated that the very things that give us hope and peace such as prayer, reading our bible, praise or worship begin to seem like an impossible task?  I think unfortunately this has been many people's testimony and maybe that's the very reason you stumbled upon this blog. You are confused, you have lost hope, and you are genuinely feeling like you are in the wilderness.